And finally....

A guy...who can hold you so right, and you can hold on to him without fearing anything

I really don't know what to say on this one...because it has never happened to me. Normally I would run for the hills if a guy tried to touch me forget putting his arms around me, but...can't help but think that can I ever...like ever and ever in this life feel like the woman in this picture? in peace and absolute bliss? kinda feels unreal.

I have seen couples hugging..all the time, but it is a very rare sight to see at least one pair which look like they are made to be in each others arms. Half the time the guys hands will be all over his lady love's delicate parts or he would just pat her head like an affectionate father! I feel a good hug is very important because, it is the most basic of contact between two people in love...it HAS to feel right!! A kiss can still be over looked in throes of passion, a hug is something where you don't think..it comes spontaneously...if it does not...then something is wrong.

I just love this picture...

A relationship needs to be comfortable...if one of them feels wrong or uncertain, it becomes quite difficult. But if a guy can hold his girl and crush all those doubts away...it is the best way to hope for the future. Because that is when you can feel safe and protected, assured that he is there for you, you can hear his heart racing..not because your body is in his arms but because his most priced possession is with him. If a guy can make  you feel like that ( god knows!) then you have found your home..your hope.

I know it all sounds a bit unreal...that love is not supposed to be rosy and dreamy but filled with trials and challenges..I know. But if you cant even hold your guy without thinking about what is there for dinner...then my friend,  something is wrong........ . Closed eyes, oblivious to the world, senses heightened yet numb, sweet relief and a blank mind...that is the real feeling.

They say you should not seek love..it comes to you, maybe it is true...I just hope I am ready for it when the time comes.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

The list continues.............

2. WHO DANCES:

Patric Swayze in Dirty Dancing created a revolution in men who suddenly wanted to learn to dance, not just because you get to...touch your woman...but also because it is the best way to get to her heart. I mean, tell me, which girl would not swoon if her guy, or any guy for that matter holds her so intimately? with a romantic music in the background. It is the perfect spot for things to happen! eyes meet, hands touch(besides other parts!) the sweet tension at the time is probably the best feeling at the moment.

Watching a guy dance with or without a woman is a treat, especially if he is some hot thing. I remember when I joined salsa II classes, the first day we were only 6 of us. after we went back and told our friends about our instructor, Brian, in 3 days the strength went up to 25!! He was such a dream, whenever he would slide his waist around me..good god! It took al my strength not to say "I love you". the feeling was out of this world. not just me, every woman in the room would wait for him to come over and hold them in his arms.plus the sexy music helped a loooottt!!!!!

So I say that boyfriend or not, go ahead and dance with a guy....as they say in cheesy romance novels, " he held her in his arms of steel and she kept dying slowly."


3. WHO CAN MAKE YOU LAUGH:

Now this one I think we all relate to. What attracts us most about a guy is clearly his smile..all the more better if he can laugh loudly without freaking out the people in his periphery!

It is very rare to find such guys, trust me. Coz the laugh I am talking here is not the forced, teeth baring ha! ha! ha! one, but a laugh which makes you wanna laugh along. This sense of humour is what I believe the key to a successful relationship. Now please don't kill me, but I know a lot of girlfriends who have the tendency of freaking out at the drop of a hat. And all the pent up tension comes out when the customary midnight love call happens. I knew a friend who could not talk to her boyfriends wihtiut yelling at him. God knows why? But by the end she would be in splits, laughing loudly and falling of her bed.

The guy could make her see the positive of all the problems with his sense of humour and that is what which was the lifesaver to their relationship. Somehow his smile put all her worries and irritations to rest.

If a guy can make you laugh from you heart.....then he is a gem.....keep him around! They are really rare!


Peace!!

WHAT IS IT ABOUT A GUY WHO..........................

1. PLAYS A GUITAR:

Eternal weakness I must say! Why do you think the Beatles were such a rage and women lost their sanity about them? 90% of my crushes so far have been guitar wielders....including my last one. But I have always noticed that whatever a guy may look like, he may be a douche bag for all you know, short, fat, weird, ugly....whatever.....everything is put to rest when this instrument comes in the fray. Besides the fact that it is the most sexiest instrument ever to be made, it makes the guy 'look' amazing too. Huh, no wonder every dude you know wants to learn to play the damn thing!! It's such a chick magnet!!!! 

But then again, when has music not attracted the female species? Any guy with a sense of music is great, but there is something about an acoustic guitar! You kinda relate to it you know, plus it gives him a whole guy next door look. And it does not hurt if he is wearing a worn out tee and baggy shorts!!! Sweet Lord!!!! So!  It does not come as a surprise to see women(including myself) swooning when a guy holds this wooden piece of marvel like he is holding his lady love and strumming the strings of her heart...........okay..come back.... now!

That day I was at marine drive enjoying the gorgeous orange and purple sky, it was unusual to see hardly any people around considering it's usual status. Anyway, this guy came and plonked down right next to me, gave a smile, took out his guitar and started playing...something.....but next thing I know, gaggles of girls swooped down around him, trying to make it look inconspicuous(ha! who were they kidding?), almost throwing me onto the rocks below, only to listen to their gorgeous Apollo!! Well, considering my life I had to move over to a safer place!

So, there you go...one of the most popular type of guys which seem to be sprouting all over the place as we speak.

The list will be continued as my gift to you readers for the coming Val's Day.............so ladies.....keep posted!!!

peace!!!

I HATE FIGHTS!!! It brings out the worst in me!! :(

For a moment when you win the argument, the exhilaration is fantastic! It feels as if you have won a war. watching the other person frown in defeat or either hang their head and walk away is the best feeling! But what after that? When you are done gloating and laughing about it? when you are in you bed at night, and the sad face of your friends comes in you mind? how does it feel then?

I feel horrible! Like my insides are on fire, the tears that come to my own eyes are proof of the incredible guilt I feel and I just have to rush to that person and let them abuse me till they are content! Is that a stupid thing? I don't know how do I do it? But when those words come rushing out, I have the ability to hurt and strike the nail right on the head......which is terrible! Nowadays when I am angry I just go...blank! Nothing comes in my mind...instead of coherence my mind is cluttered with various feelings!!

When anger comes rushing in, how is one to stop it? I am much better now! At least I can smile and let it bounce of when people say things to me, or either mock me when they think i don't get it! But there are moments when there are words on the tip of my tongue....and just a nudge is enough for me to explode. I dread that vile feeling.

Anger is a bad thing.............I had to manage it once, it turns people into a monster, their own monster, a side that they try so hard to cover up! This anger then leads to small and petty fights, which then grows into something bigger and then gets infested and begins to decay...........leaving it ugly!! I hate it!

I was just remembering an equally ugly fight I had a few years ago with a friend. How I was quivering with anger listening to her accusations, and there were so many things in my mind that I wanted to tell her..but I didn't....I just kept it buried deep within me that one day, out of nowhere, I just exploded......God!!! It was awful!! Watching her eyes tear up.........it was horrible! I could not think straight for the next week. It never mended.........our ego's were blocking the way.

So guys.....I obviously cant ask you not to fight.....but....at least we can try to reduce the venom....and the most important thing, come back...come back after the fight is done and over, because it does not matter how long and hard you fight, but how fast can you forgive and be together and happy again.

I have tried......and in the process let people walk over me at times, but I don't mind.....as long as that horrible bubbling guilt stays away from me!

peace!!

WHEN I THOUGHT FRACTURES WERE DA BOMB....................and got carried away!!!

Broken arms( 3 times),
broken legs( 2 times),
broken collarbone( 2 times),
broken  fingers( 2 times),
AND
broken ankles( 2 times).
equals to.........................
ELEVEN FRIGGIN FRACTURES!!!!!!!!!! And the best part is, 9 of them were even before I was 12 years old!! I know...you are probably thinking....."aww....poor Marina!" BUT it was the simply awesome!!

I was probably the only kid around who would come into unusual high spirits about a broken limb and walk around with a grin on my face!! That was because they did not see the bright side of a cast like good ol me! People around  me were at my beck and call.......... it was my hall pass to absolute heaven. The sympathy, the treats, also the 'no-homework' was ultimate!! The sight of an impy lil' kid with a huge cast was a enough to melt anyone. Sigh! Good times!!

It went on for quite some time..........till the tables turned. Suddenly I was missing class picnics, could not get out out of the house, sports day was a no-show, I missed my friends birthday parties......the gorgeous cakes I missed...sob....it was pure horror!  Then, the itching got terrible and my mum would yell at me for rubbing my arm against the wall like some elephant and getting the paint off!!! And the worst...............one fracture completely deformed my arm...till this day it looks so scary if I stick it out.....how I dreaded taking the pledge in school!!!!! From then on, I thought it was about time I get a grip on my crazy fate!!

And i did.....till the 12th grade....where I broke both my pinkie fingers while playing basket ball......the only consolation was that the doctor was cute!!!! but since then......touch wood...I have kept my word...no fractures..yet!! Plenty of cuts, sprains, falls, but no fracture!!

Everyone should have at least one fracture before they get old(coz then it's not so much fun as I have described!)..its an awesome experience. when the hand is being put in the cast....the fun signing sessions, and the best...when they cut the cast...its so freaky!! Like they are gonna cut right through your arm..and when you see your arm....it looks like a shriveled stick! Errr........it sounds gross and scary BUT trust me...its super fun!!!!!

What I am trying to say here is, don't freak out when you break something...its normal and gives you license to be pampered like a princess, plus all the attention you get is fantastic!!!

So go ahead....break a leg.........literally!!!!

peace!!

WHERE ARE YOU?

I am waiting here, I have been waiting for a long time.....

looking out of my window.......just for a glance of you.

But  I am losing hope now,

waiting is a hard thing to do.

But maybe you are right in front of me.

maybe it is me who is blind,

maybe I don't want to see you.

But then why am I still waiting here? alone?

You should know that you are the most frightening thing to me,

and that is why I have always been running away from you.

These walls around me are my own, I made them to keep you away......

but also so that you can break them down and reach out to me.

Why does everyone make falling in love sound so easy?

when it is the toughest thing in the world.

Moreover, you are not someone whom I would melt to right away...I think,

even though I would love to.

I don't want to stand here waiting forever,

I want to run right into your arms.

But so help me if I am holding myself back with everything I have got,

will this change after I see you?

Until then, I am here, fighting myself every minute,

going crazy with fear..........and hope.

Just so that one day, this wait will be over,

and I finally will be in love with you....forever......

peace!!

Are "Real" Friends Utopian Already?????

"Sometimes its not easy to be good." 

I came to know of a very disturbing thing recently dear readers,.......some people think that true friends don't exist anymore. When someone would say, "what has become of this world?" I would scoff at them.But now...those words are swilling in my mouth!

All my life, wherever I have been posted so far, I have made friends...good friends..just friends....on and off friends...and they have been the Woodstock to my happiness, my reason to look forward to each new day. Even now, I have so many friends in college and I feel happy and sated in their midst!! But when I look around, I see a mockery of friendship....there are rare bonds where friends are true to each other, and that is just....sad.

A true friend is someone who is your twin soul, who does not need to ask you if you need help. They are the ones who will think that you are their evrything, and they will follow you to the ends of the world! You can stay without talking them for days, but when you speak to them, you don't feel the time gap! A true friend! Many of you think that all the aforementioned qualities are 'ideal'........really? are they? But wait a minute....have you ever been such a friend to anyone? Then how can you call them ideal when you have not even tried to be someone like that???

You may laugh at me, call me a liar, or say I am bullshitting.....but I have such a person in my life. Call me lucky, blessed..whatever...but I do. and I realized that as soon as I got separated from her. I met Nivi in the 8th grade and got transferred right in the next year. We became fast friends. But after I left and when we wrote to each other, we realized that we were more than mere friends.......it was pure sisterly love....a relation where we were so close that even though we were apart, it did not matter. It is then I realized that what a friend I have...she made me believe what I am trying to tell you people.

Till date we have not fought, not argued, never lied and I believe have never even had the slightest trace of jealously, anger or anything of that sort. There never was the need to. She has the power to calm me when I feel I will explode, to console me when there is no one for me, to simply make me a better person. It has been 9 years and we re stronger than ever.

Still cant believe me??? WHY???? why? why? why??????? What has happened to you? Did a bad experience with a friend shatter you belief? come on!! If that was the case I should have jumped off a cliff by now!

I have been hurt by some real close friends, been left helpless and defenseless when I needed them.....ridiculed by them....you think I was made of rock? I cried to sleep thinking about that! But instead of making me a bitter person, it brought out the best in me. It made me swear that never, ever in my life will I ever do that to a friend....because no friend deserves that.

It is not a contract where you have certain expectations from each other. it is how much you can give....how much can you do for them...how much can you be there for them...how much can you fight for them. Have you evr fought for a friend? It is the toughest thing to do. It is all about you, and what you can do for them.

Now you might argue with me that it is plain human to have doubts or at times lie or feel jealous about a friend. listen to yourself....why would you feel all that in the first place if that person is your twin soul?? And even if you do feel like that...it is okay...as long as you come back to him/her at the end of the day......not keep that niggling feeling buried down in your heart. Forgiving, forgetting and moving on are the cardinal rules in friendship.

But what many people have argued with me is about when a friend gives us grief...when they hurt us...what are we to do...stand by them even then???? People, let them go.....I have done that...and trust me, it hurts like hell, because watching someone who was a part of your life suddenly not wanting to be with you anymore....is painful. But it is the best thing you can do for them. It does not have to turn ugly. 

Look, you may call me a fool for my beliefs....thinking that they cannot happen in real life......but all I have to say is,.....as you sow. so you shall reap! It is not possible that you are the best Friend to someone and they treat you like scum...because goodness is a rare thing, and is recognized when seen.

So believe....believe in the power of  a true friend....it is okay if you don't have one, but that should not stop you from being someone's.

peace!!